March 8, 2013
4:30 (ish) AM
Dear Max,
In approximately 27 hours, your
daddy and I will be dropping you off at Grandma and Papa’s. You’ll have lots of fun there. I know you’ve already packed your bag with
your “essentials” such as a vintage boxed set of fairy tales that I used to
enjoy as a little girl and your “jewels” in a pirate goodie bag. Don’t worry, I made sure to slip in some
other things you may need such as…your Star Wars Angry Bird undies, clothes,
and your toothbrush… When we pick you up
something special will have happened to you.
You will have become a big brother!
There are a few things I wanted to tell you before this happens…
For starters, the minute you entered
my life, I was changed forever. You
were perfect. I had no idea how much
you could truly love a person until I laid my eyes on you. You were a “pretty baby”. When you cried, I said you sounded like a
seahorse. It’s been pointed out to me that
seahorses don’t make noises… but if they did, I imagine that’s what they’d
sound like!
When we took you home, I remember
thinking I’d never sleep again! I’m not
going to lie. You weren’t the easiest
baby. In fact, there was probably a good
twelve-month period after you came home that I vowed never to have another baby
again! You suffered from acid reflux,
you wouldn’t poop on your own for at least a month. You cried constantly. Wherever we traveled, we had to take your
bouncer just to make sure we could get you to sleep or stop crying. It’s all that’d work! Did I mention you didn’t sleep through the
night until you were just under a year old?!
Even though that first year was
difficult, I would do it again in a heartbeat just to watch you grow into the
little man you are today. You make my
life complete and even though people tell me that love grows and I’ll have
enough love for you AND your new sister, it’s hard to believe. You have the kindest heart… if I’m sad,
you’re sad. You wake up every morning
wanting to “snuuuuuuuuuggle!” You know I’m the one to come to when you are hurt
or sad. We’ve spent every summer
together, just the two of us, for the past 4 years…
Your “go to guy” for fun in most certainly
your daddy! You guys are two of a
kind. It makes me smile even if it
appears to irritate me when I can’t get a response from either of you while your
watching one of your movies for the millionth time! You both love your music and have more energy
than the Energizer Bunny himself!
The three of us have had so many
wonderful memories together. I would
have to say taking you to Disney is one of my favorites. You were just under two years old and I’m
certain you don’t remember much of it, but you had a blast. I was so worried someone would steal you in
the crowds…let’s be honest, you weren’t usually content to sit in a stroller or
follow directions… but you surprised me!
You were a perfect angel and took it all in!
All your birthday parties stick out in my
mind fondly. From surfing sock moneys,
pigs and pancakes, to pirates…each one was a blast that I planned months in
advance for. This year I’ve promised to
let you pick out the theme. I’m guessing
it’ll have something to do with Mario and Luigi or Star Wars Angry Birds?! Either way, I can’t wait! Although the thought of you turning four
doesn’t even possible to me!
With that said, the thought of you
becoming a big brother makes me a tad sad.
Things will be changing. It’ll no
longer be “the three of us”. You’ll have
to share the attention you love so much with your sister. Wait, back up…you’ll have to accept that this
baby coming in just over a day is actually a GIRL! You still insisted at bedtime that you only
wanted a boy… anyway… It’s
happening. (I’m not sure if I’m trying
to convince you of this or me, haha!)
You’ll be a great big brother… You’ll love her, protect her, and play with
her. You’ll also be a terror at times…
I’m sure. You’ll tease her, make her
cry, and most likely try to avoid her at times.
Just remember that this baby sister may be annoying to you but
is a gift that you should cherish for life.
You’ll always have each other…during good times… and bad. You’ll need each other.
Okay, I’m getting off track
here. My main point for this letter is
to let you know how much I love you.
Soon, you will no longer be the only child that fills my heart. Luckily, your sister won’t be taking over the
space I have in my heart for you, my heart will just grow that much bigger to
make room for her love. You’ll forever
be my “little man” and I can’t wait to watch you as you enter the next phase of
your life as a big brother. You were
meant for this job.
I love you with all my heart, little
man!
Mommy
First pic of the 4 of us
